I’m stuck between wanting:

1. A long lasting relationship with my soulmate who supports me and protects me and is my partner and we are completely bad ass together and in love

2. Wanting to have casual sex and rip out the heart of everyone person I meet

3. Being independent and having a loyal dog while I’m married to my career

I find it so hard to trust people now. I don’t like sharing my personal life, my passions, my problems, my thoughts, my anything.
I’ve become a terrible friend, the person who never replies texts and avoids people and hangouts as most as possible.




"why dont you just give him a chance"

idk because im not physically or mentally attracted to him and ‘but he likes you’ or ‘but hes really nice’ isnt going to change the fact that im not interested

Damn, I don’t think women know how much that really hurts


So women aren’t allowed to not like someone back? If someone likes me I’m forced to like them back too? Or just because they’re nice I have to fake around them and make them believe I like them back so they don’t make a shitty tumblr post about friendzone?
God, I’ve been turned down by guys so many times and you know what I do? I move on. I just fucking move on because I’m not gonna force someone into liking me, I want to be with someone who loves me for what makes me whole, not because I was a whiny ass begging for their attention.